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me at the Landin', or go over to Green Island to mother's when winter comes? Nobody shall trouble you an' mother finds it hard bein' alone.I can't bear to leave you here'--and I burst right out crying.I'd had my own trials, young as I was, an' she knew it.Oh, I did entreat her; yes, I entreated Joanna.""What did she say then?" asked Mrs.Fosdick, much moved.

"She looked the same way, sad an' remote through it all," said Mrs.Todd mournfully."She took hold of my hand, and we sat down close together; 'twas as if she turned round an' made a child of me.'I haven't got no right to live with folks no more,' she said.

'You must never ask me again, Almiry: I've done the only thing Icould do, and I've made my choice.I feel a great comfort in your kindness, but I don't deserve it.I have committed the unpardonable sin; you don't understand,' says she humbly.'I was in great wrath and trouble, and my thoughts was so wicked towards God that I can't expect ever to be forgiven.I have come to know what it is to have patience, but I have lost my hope.You must tell those that ask how 'tis with me,' she said, 'an' tell them I want to be alone.' I couldn't speak; no, there wa'n't anything I could say, she seemed so above everything common.I was a good deal younger then than I be now, and I got Nathan's little coral pin out o' my pocket and put it into her hand; and when she saw it and I told her where it come from, her face did really light up for a minute, sort of bright an' pleasant.'Nathan an' I was always good friends; I'm glad he don't think hard of me,' says she.

'I want you to have it, Almiry, an' wear it for love o' both o'

us,' and she handed it back to me.'You give my love to Nathan,--he's a dear good man,' she said; 'an' tell your mother, if I should be sick she mustn't wish I could get well, but I want her to be the one to come.' Then she seemed to have said all she wanted to, as if she was done with the world, and we sat there a few minutes longer together.It was real sweet and quiet except for a good many birds and the sea rollin' up on the beach; but at last she rose, an' I did too, and she kissed me and held my hand in hers a minute, as if to say good-by; then she turned and went right away out o' the door and disappeared.